So I'm a little bit bored. It's about 9:11pm, and I'm hanging out with my brother, as I'll be driving them to the airport around...4 or 5am? Somewhere around there. They have to be there by 6. It's about a 45 minute drive from their house. So I'll be back around 7 or 8 am. I don't know if I'm going to sleep at all. I don't think I will. Paulette might be taking a nap, but Luke won't be sleeping at all since his sleep schedule's kind of fucked anyway.
It's been a..quick? day. Woke up pretty early - 9am. Drove around to put in more applications, and to drop by and ask about previous ones. It's getting pretty disheartening getting the "We're still viewing our applications" or "We will call you." responses. :/
Then I hung around a cafe for a bit before waiting for Luke to come see me so he could drop off his car at a repair shop, and then we went back to his place.
So far it's just been us sitting around. He's playing Mercenaries on the 360 while Paulette plays the DS.
Apparently we're going to be doing a Wal-Mart run a lot later tonight? Should be interesting. I don't think I've ever done one with Luke n' Lette before.
Dylan went fishing with Amie, I wonder if they caught anything? Hopefully we'll chat a bit later so I can ease my boredom a bit.
I really want to go snorkeling or walking around or something again. A mostly sedentary day today makes me feel horrible. I've been feeling horrible in general I guess. Just hating the way I look. I've lost weight, but it's not enough. I just don't feel attractive. Maybe that's why I've been craving physicality? I feel like a disgusting worthless pile of ugly. That might be too self-deprecating, but I just can't shake it. I'm not depressed, I know I'm not. I'm just...distressed? Maybe unsatisfied is a better word.
Bleaah. I can't believe it's ONLY 9:18. I have what...7 more hours? to go before I drop them off. I have no idea what I'll do with my time then. It'll be around 7 or 8 by the time I even get back, if not earlier. I won't feel like going home (complications with the mother), and going to back to Luke's place is a bit far for how tired I'll be. From Ft.Laudy all the way back to Gateway again. I've been feeling so stressed out. I hope I don't pick up smoking, but I doubt I will. I'll see if Dylan will be okay with letting me crash at his place.
I really hope things will pick up a bit more in the job department. It's been so nice to just get out and snorkel or walk around the everglades and be active, though! I hope we keep it up. 3-4 times a week would be awesome. I'm already a lot darker from the sun.
I'm pretty much babbling at this point. I'd rather be out and about, or with my Raurr-rah, but that'll be tomorrow, so I can wait.
Can it be like, 11 AM or 12PM tomorrow already? >:(
AND NOW I INTERRUPT THIS MESSAGE FOR A DUMB SURVEY
A is for age: 21. 22 in June :)
B is for beer of choice: Granville Island Lager
C is for career right now: Nurse
D is for your dog's name: Well. She's not my dog but...JULIET!
E is for essential item you use everyday: Uhmm. Lately it's been...my phone. Mostly for music.
F is for favorite TV show: Scrubs!!!! and CSI: Las Vegas.
G is for favorite game to watch: MGS4, DMC4, etc.
H is for Home town: Ottawa, Ontario, Canada!
I is for instruments you play: None! X)
J is for favorite juice: Orange.
K is for whose butt you'd like to be kicking: Scene kids.
L is for last place you ate at: Luke's place!
M is for marriage: Hmm. I'd like to, eventually. Maybe. I don't know if it'll be anything 'official' or not.
N is for your name: Jessi
O is for overnight hospital stay: Never.
P is for people you were with today: Luke and Paulette only, really.
Q is for what's your best quality: God, I don't know. I guess I'm pretty soft-hearted.
R is for what are you currently reading: Nothing, but I'd like to start on Steinbeck soon.
S is for relationship status: In a relationship :)
T is for time you woke up today: 9 AM
U is for the type of underwear you have on: Boy shorts.
V is for vegetable you love: Avo (I guess that's a veg?)
W is for worst habits: I let myself get too much into routines, and I can be pretty paranoid, etc.
X is for x-rays you've had recently: Oh wow. Uhm. Looooooooooong time ago, I dont even remember why.
Y is for something candy: What kind of a request is Something Candy? O_o I'd have to honestly say Wine Gums are the best ever.
Z is for zodiac sign: Cancer
That was delightfully time-wasting!
So yeah. Oh well. I likely won't write in this thing publically for another long-ass time. Harr harr. It's great for wasting time. This took me all of what, 20-30 minutes :D yay.
ANYWAY before I keep going and confusing myself and those who might marginally read this, I am signing off!
Current Music: Luke playin' Mercenaries
stressed
ecstatic